The last few weeks I have been riding the struggle bus. I wasn't surprised by it, it was a familiar feeling that finds it way to me every November. A mix of wanting to slow down, to process, to release, to rest and an overwhelming feeling that I should not. A need to keep going, creating, pushing, doing. An underlying sense of not deserving to stop.
This all translated to me not returning calls to close friends, a palpable energy of unease and restless nights trying to will myself into action. The two week battle in my brain wouldn't quit, so my body took over and gave me a shut 'er down stomach flu.
The very next day, I had a scheduled meeting with my special healing coach and I decided to keep the appointment. While resting on her table, I was reminded of the qualities of contentment & compassion. A willingness to listen to my own truth by being completely present versus creating stories around what I should be doing and what should be happening.
In just a short day of actively practicing more kindness towards myself, I unlocked so much peace and ease within myself. And to my surprise, a river of creativity as well.
My holiday wish to all of you is that you give yourself generous space to remember all of the moments that you have created this year and give thanks to the people that you shared them with.
Loving Kindness Meditation: take 5 minutes today to close your eyes, take 3 deep breaths and recite this meditation for yourself and for the loved ones in your life.
May I be filled with lovingkindness.
May I be happy and well.
May I be safe and free.
May I be peaceful and at ease.